the state of "being"

[pyrsandponies]

jenlev's latest post on being and Saturday AM coffee got me thinking, and so, I wanted to cross post my comment here.

this morning, I am trying to balance "being" with my coffee and the view and a sense of peace with the fact that I should be working on my resume, and the reality that I feel guilty for not being outside with the family helping with the chores and the fact that I would love to have the sense of self to enjoy my coffee and then go out at leisure and ride, and watch lambs and just enjoy. And perhaps knit or weave or work on a leather project i have in mind.

*sigh*

Being is hard for me because even when my time is my own - perhaps ESPECIALLY when my time is my own - I struggle with all the things I want to /should want to /just plain SHOULD do.

There is a quote from someone - a woman, I know that - which says "Don't should all over yourself," and so, I am trying to enjoy where I am at, and what I have done this morning already.

and now, my exercise ball and mat call as I am STIFF from aikido last night. ;)

Comments

[jenlev.livejournal.com]

i hope that you gave yourself permission to sit and be, and in the midst of the tasks at hand to be with the horses and have more coffee.

and as i recently finished with the exercise ball (the big blue ball of exercise hilarity) i'm dashing off the ski machine. there are some shoulds we can't avoid. ;)

*hug*

[electricland.livejournal.com]

"Don't should all over yourself" is from Nanette Workman, during an interview on CBC radio, as reported by me. ;)

I miss those long car trips sometimes...

[raithen.livejournal.com]

I kinda figured you were my intermediate source on this - sorry I didn't give appropriate referencing! ;).